“Be very careful if you
make a woman cry, because God counts her tears. The woman came out of a man’s
rib. Not from his feet to be walked on. Not from his head to be superior, but
from the side to be equal. Under the arm to be protected, and next to the heart
to be loved.”
I love the above quote very much, one of my faves. In the words of my darling Alicia Keys...'Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart, you can try sleeping in my bed'. I'm sorry but this beautiful chica must have had her fair share of heartbreaks to be able to come up with such. Let me tell you what happens when you sleep with a broken heart, or well, what I think happens...
I thought I went to bed just okay last night, I mean of course I was hurting and all with a heavy heart, I tried praying but I just couldn't find the words, so I prayed in my heart and hoped God would still hear my cry for mercy and I immediately remembered another one of my favourite Bible verses Roman 8:26, of course Trust me, English girl at heart, my favourite interpretation of that verse is the English Standard Version and I quote thus 'Likewise, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words'. Hmmm depth upon depth. Whooosh!. So I felt reassured that the Lord would hear my heart's cry.
Anyway back to the issue at hand, I woke up this morning crying, I couldn't believe it, as in literally had hot tears streaming down my pretty face when I opened my eyes. Imagine going to bed normally and waking up with tears, now tell me, if that's not the result of sleeping with a broken heart, then what is? What could possibly beat that?
Its New Year's Eve, its been a really crazy 2012 for me, in fact the way January 2012 dealt with me, it's just the grace of God really. Let's just say I started the year on a really rough note and scary thing is that it all came as a huge shock. I had prayed and fasted fervently in December 2011 for my life to have a fresh new start in 2012, only for January 2012 to arrive with a huge shock. #ShockOfLife as you twitterites like to coin stuff. It's like the devil knows when one is trying to put in an effort and then that's when the mongrel decides to strike. But anyway, that's his job, his job is to 'kill, steal and destroy' so my Bible tells me. It was a tough time for me, my family was far away, I was fresh outta Uni, had moved to a new city, had a new job, new environment and it was tough but the Holy Spirit kept me. I've always been used to living alone anyway, been living alone since I was 17 and I thank God my Parents 'dumped' me all alone in Cambridge at that young age. It built me. #Grateful
...but God has come to give life and to give it more abundantly and I'm thankful for 2012 because it has made me who I am today and I have learned from my mistakes which is why I know my 2013 will be amazeballs. This coming year is definitely my year, I can feel it already, God has not even started with me yet. My cousin once tweeted 'you GROW through what you GO through'. Bless his heart. Honestly, I have grown through and from, what I have gone through.
So I pray...
-That this 2013, my dream job will locate me and I can finally start building and focusing on my legal career. No more 'in the meantime' jobs. Amen.
-That I will become a stronger and wellrounded individual emotionally. Amen.
-That I will have better and healthier relationships; a man that would love, honour and PROTECT me because for me, love = protection; someone that will treat me like his own daughter and would never ever want to see me cry because my tears could break his heart; and most importantly, someone that I would be happy to love in return just the same; no holding back. Amen.
-That I will flee from all temptation and all manner of sin and seek God's Kingdom first because that is in actual fact, the best foundation to have. Every other thing will be added. Amen.
Wish you guys a prosperous new year ahead.
I love the above quote very much, one of my faves. In the words of my darling Alicia Keys...'Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart, you can try sleeping in my bed'. I'm sorry but this beautiful chica must have had her fair share of heartbreaks to be able to come up with such. Let me tell you what happens when you sleep with a broken heart, or well, what I think happens...
I thought I went to bed just okay last night, I mean of course I was hurting and all with a heavy heart, I tried praying but I just couldn't find the words, so I prayed in my heart and hoped God would still hear my cry for mercy and I immediately remembered another one of my favourite Bible verses Roman 8:26, of course Trust me, English girl at heart, my favourite interpretation of that verse is the English Standard Version and I quote thus 'Likewise, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words'. Hmmm depth upon depth. Whooosh!. So I felt reassured that the Lord would hear my heart's cry.
Anyway back to the issue at hand, I woke up this morning crying, I couldn't believe it, as in literally had hot tears streaming down my pretty face when I opened my eyes. Imagine going to bed normally and waking up with tears, now tell me, if that's not the result of sleeping with a broken heart, then what is? What could possibly beat that?
Its New Year's Eve, its been a really crazy 2012 for me, in fact the way January 2012 dealt with me, it's just the grace of God really. Let's just say I started the year on a really rough note and scary thing is that it all came as a huge shock. I had prayed and fasted fervently in December 2011 for my life to have a fresh new start in 2012, only for January 2012 to arrive with a huge shock. #ShockOfLife as you twitterites like to coin stuff. It's like the devil knows when one is trying to put in an effort and then that's when the mongrel decides to strike. But anyway, that's his job, his job is to 'kill, steal and destroy' so my Bible tells me. It was a tough time for me, my family was far away, I was fresh outta Uni, had moved to a new city, had a new job, new environment and it was tough but the Holy Spirit kept me. I've always been used to living alone anyway, been living alone since I was 17 and I thank God my Parents 'dumped' me all alone in Cambridge at that young age. It built me. #Grateful
...but God has come to give life and to give it more abundantly and I'm thankful for 2012 because it has made me who I am today and I have learned from my mistakes which is why I know my 2013 will be amazeballs. This coming year is definitely my year, I can feel it already, God has not even started with me yet. My cousin once tweeted 'you GROW through what you GO through'. Bless his heart. Honestly, I have grown through and from, what I have gone through.
So I pray...
-That this 2013, my dream job will locate me and I can finally start building and focusing on my legal career. No more 'in the meantime' jobs. Amen.
-That I will become a stronger and wellrounded individual emotionally. Amen.
-That I will have better and healthier relationships; a man that would love, honour and PROTECT me because for me, love = protection; someone that will treat me like his own daughter and would never ever want to see me cry because my tears could break his heart; and most importantly, someone that I would be happy to love in return just the same; no holding back. Amen.
-That I will flee from all temptation and all manner of sin and seek God's Kingdom first because that is in actual fact, the best foundation to have. Every other thing will be added. Amen.
Wish you guys a prosperous new year ahead.
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